To Clutch to the Past or to Move On?

I loved you.

Not romantically, mind you.
But I did love you.

But perhaps love is too strong a word.

Love is two sided.

It requires a sacrifice of self for another, and the reciprocation from that person.
It gives and takes as it must.
It actively finds ways to grow and manifest itself boldly.

I shouldn't have cared for you.
We should have cared for each other.

I shouldn't have tried so hard.
We should have been a team.

I shouldn't still be grasping at fragments of the past.
We should be laughing together.

Second chances are necessary.
But you've had about a hundred too many of them.